The connection between stress & tumour activity
by Geraldine – previous retreat participant
I chose to treat my diagnosis of grade 3 metastasised breast cancer alternatively. As such, I became the overseer of my case and had to be diligent about recording all my treatment protocols, notable stress situations and any clinical observations that may affect my path back to health. This is something I cannot recommend enough, because if you have a detailed health chart of when you started a supplement or detox programme etc, the clinical rationale for its implementation and the affects on your body, then you can quickly determine where you are either going right or wrong and remedy it in swift time.
I discovered my tumour mass by being drawn to painful sensations in my breast and armpit whenever I was in a state of stress or emotional turmoil. This amazed me and immediately I looked upon the tumours themselves as ‘barometers’ to stress of any kind. One day when I was walking up a large hill, I noted that I had waves of pain moving through my tumours at an even pace. Nothing was worrying me and I was feeling fit, so I could not understand why they were intensifying to the point I had to massage them. When I reached the summit of the hill I saw a microwave tower for mobile phone reception and knew immediately that was the reason for these rather strange bands of pain pulsing through me.
Another time I was making a trade on the stock market through a web broking site and I made a typo. Instead of buying $5000 worth of shares, I bought $50,000! I could not afford this and was forced to sell immediately. The problem grew as the stock price dropped dramatically and left me in a situation where I could not even afford the losses on the transaction. What could I do? This threatened all the small financial security I had at a time I was meant to be reducing stress. Apart from the obvious anxiety such a situation would invoke, my tumours began to pinch and claw at me and almost instantly became inflamed and active. I ended up having to borrow $45,000 and extending my settlement date to a week. By that time, the tumours themselves had increased in size and made some movement towards my lymphatic axilla region. It was frightening – but I had to calm myself and employ breathing meditations and relaxation programmes to reduce the anxiety that was clearly compromising me in a very dangerous way.
At another time I discovered a sexual indiscretion my partner had made, confirming suspicions I had. I felt full of rage and contempt at the discovery and flew into a violent hateful fit of screaming and slapping. It was really appalling when I look back at it – but his actions had tripped the switched for just about every reason I had developed cancer from emotional injury in the first place. Boy! Did my tumours love it! I could almost hear them egging me on…’yes precious, reduce yourself to a seething worthless mass, keep up that adrenal rage, it’s all so delicious…’ I could feel the tumours literally heaving in my breast – along with that specific clawing pain they make. This feeling stayed with me for about 5 days until I learnt to emotionally deal with the situation in a way that would serve me.
I have noticed watching the news that I will get twinges of pain – fleeting, but none the less specifically in my tumours. I walk away and leave the media circus to the masochists and the misguided and feel so much the healthier for it.
There have been many incidents to report where stress has settled in the tumours and set them to heat up and grow, but I would rather not bore you with the diarisation of details. Suffice to say, stress does indeed affect the tumour mass on its way to being a bloody big and painful problem that may see you to an early grave. It is of major significance and ranks on my ‘health chart’ as the second biggest problem in my protocol to date.
Here we have a problem. Just because beautiful you has developed cancer, does not mean life is going to turn the stress tap off and let you rock yourself back to health in a parallel universe. No, it’s going to be there to test you every step of the way and the only thing you can do to allay the situation is learn to deal with stress. That means you have to find the emotional triggers to your stress and work on healing them at the very root of the problem and you have to learn techniques to relax your body and allow your cells to vacillate at a healthy frequency that encourages their return to health. This comes through meditation, breathing techniques, exercise and knowing how to instigate a lifestyle of true self-love. This latter point sounds easier than it actually is, but when you discover how to really love yourself, you are in the best hands you will ever find.
I recommend that you take time in your journeys back to health to learn about who you really are and take some teachings to help guide you home. Sue Kira’s retreats are a wonderful way to do that. She has a loving and personable nature that puts you at ease as she teaches you about the gentle breath and the way back to self-love. The environments she chooses are beautiful and the focus on organic, vegetarian nutrition is as pleasant as it is important. She has an extensive background in research, detoxification, herbalism and nutrition and is a perfect guide to improving your total wellbeing.